lol I had No idea you had a crush on him at that stage!!! Would have felt much less bad about splitting up with him had I known!! :) Really glad you two are so happy together *fluff* :)
6. About 2 years into the relationship I was waiting for a ring... Within weeks of going out I had a dream that I was walking up the aisle and Oli was at the top of it in a top hat, (my subconscious obviously didn't know men don't wear hat in church), and i was happy and didn't run away. I'd had the same dream with Tristan where I went 'oh no this is all wrong and fled'. And then 2 years on (my previous relationships having lasted 2 weeks-6months) I was still happy, and not looking elsewhere.
I think when dating I've always had the 'is he the one' 'could I live with him forever?' 'can I imagine a future for us' sort of set of questions in my head. And if the answers were no, pow end of relationship and time to move on. No point in wasting time emotion and tangles of attachment if it's not right.
By the time Oli did ask me (you know AFTER we'd brought a HOUSE together) I'd given up hoping he would and was a bit taken by surprise. Having the house and being so settled meant really we were/are already married in every other sense, so in a way it's just a formality now.
Sometimes I'd think I wish he'd asked when I was in the height of passion etc, to have that memory to hold on to, but having gone through my doubts and worries I've come out the other side, and it just feels right, and I'm happy, deeply content sort of happy, and i think that'll be a good way to walk down the aisle to him.
It's interesting that I didn't have any qualms about buying a house with him, it didn't really occur to me. Whereas with the wrong person I'd have real alarm bells ringing!!
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6. About 2 years into the relationship I was waiting for a ring... Within weeks of going out I had a dream that I was walking up the aisle and Oli was at the top of it in a top hat, (my subconscious obviously didn't know men don't wear hat in church), and i was happy and didn't run away. I'd had the same dream with Tristan where I went 'oh no this is all wrong and fled'. And then 2 years on (my previous relationships having lasted 2 weeks-6months) I was still happy, and not looking elsewhere.
I think when dating I've always had the 'is he the one' 'could I live with him forever?' 'can I imagine a future for us' sort of set of questions in my head. And if the answers were no, pow end of relationship and time to move on. No point in wasting time emotion and tangles of attachment if it's not right.
By the time Oli did ask me (you know AFTER we'd brought a HOUSE together) I'd given up hoping he would and was a bit taken by surprise. Having the house and being so settled meant really we were/are already married in every other sense, so in a way it's just a formality now.
Sometimes I'd think I wish he'd asked when I was in the height of passion etc, to have that memory to hold on to, but having gone through my doubts and worries I've come out the other side, and it just feels right, and I'm happy, deeply content sort of happy, and i think that'll be a good way to walk down the aisle to him.
It's interesting that I didn't have any qualms about buying a house with him, it didn't really occur to me. Whereas with the wrong person I'd have real alarm bells ringing!!
:)